Bye bye,Mina! My baby girl!

Okay... Not sure if u've all heard of it.. or noticed it..

 

Facebook is so f**ked and I guess this is the end of it...

 

So in China, it's totally blocked

 

WTF!

I could have only thought of one good reason why I wanted to see the movie "made of Honor"...it was because of the actor Patrick Dempsey before I actually watched it. But now I can think of more than 10 reasons to recommand my friends to see this movie... well, at least to all my girl friends.. I'd say that Aaron would have really hated it if he has seen it with me...

I know that i'm supposed to write something positive here since this movie has a happy ending. But lately I've been having a real hard dealing with my abnormal mood swing and me trying to fight against it and all of the stuff going on with that... It's just killing me step by step slowly. So I can't think of anything good to write here. And because my weird behaivor, I think I might have pissed someone off and I'll never be able to change the fact that people are gonna blame me for that... I feel exhausted as well.. But it seems like it's hard to ask for understanding from others who have no idea what I've been through in the past... I wouldn't have understood, at least.  

Nothing really matters to people nowadays...maybe not to all, but a lot. Anyone can be replaced by another person in no time... reality says it all. One day you are the most important person to another person...yeah, everyone could be someone somehow... yet, the next day he/she couldn't care you less , oops, you are nobody at that moment.. Yes, tough, that's life!

So, does forever love really exist? I wonder... is there a fine line between optimist and pessimism? Then what am I when it comes to relationship? Do I have faith in it or have I lost it long time ago already? Can a piece of broken goods be fixed without leaving any scars? How do I stop all those questions bouncing around in my head?

I need to get hypnotized... that's so far the only solution i've came up... it might not be so practical I guess (others might say). But it wouldn't hurt to try for once...

Just so you know, it hurts me too...

Head under water,
And they tell me to breathe easy for a while.
The breathing gets harder, even I know that.
You made room for me but it's too soon to see,
If I'm happy in your hands.
I'm unusually hard to hold on to.
Blank stares at blank pages.
No easy way to say this.
You mean well, but you make this hard on me.
I'm not gonna write you a love song,
'Cause you asked for it,
'Cause you need one, you see.
I'm not gonna write you a love song,
'Cause you tell me it's,
Make or breaking this.
If you're on your way,
I'm not gonna write you to stay.
If all you have is leaving,
I'm gonna need a better reason
to write you a love song today.
Today.
I learned the hard way,
That they all say things you want to hear.
My heavy heart sinks deep down under you,
And your twisted words, your help just hurts.
You are not what I thought you were.
Hello to high and dry.
Convinced me to please you.
Made me think that I need this too.
I'm trying to let you hear me as I am.
I'm not gonna write you a love song,
'Cause you asked for it,
'Cause you need one, you see.
I'm not gonna write you a love song,
'Cause you tell me it's,
Make or breaking this.
If you're on your way,
I'm not gonna write you to stay.
If all you have is leaving,
I'm gonna need a better reason
to write you a love song today.
Promise me you'll leave the light on,
To help me see with daylight, my guide, gone.
'Cause I believe there's a way
you can love me because I say,
I won't write you a love song,
'Cause you asked for it,
'Cause you need one you see.
I'm not gonna write you a love song,
'Cause you tell me it's make or breaking this.
Is that why you wanted a love song,
'Cause you asked for it,
'Cause you need one you see.
I'm not gonna write you a love song,
'Cause you tell me it's make or breaking this.
If you're on your way,
I'm not gonna write you to stay.
If your heart is nowhere in it,
I don't want it for a minute.
Babe, I'll walk the seven seas
when I believe that there's a reason to,
Write you a love song today.
Today.

 

My new job started about one and half week ago. Yeah yeah, people might wonder if I'm having a good time here or do i like my new job and this city? So I'd like to leave a message to all my friends and I wanna tell you guys that I miss you a lot...

 

of course, it's never easy to move to another city and build up your life there... there's always so much to do in the beginning... Looking for a new apartment, getting used to the extreme weather while getting lost in the new neighborhood, searching for nice Rest. and Bar so far isn't that difficult, but making new friends is a bit tricky. Everything is new and unfamiliar to you.  And it can be a little bit scary sometimes, well also kind of exciting.

 

Lucky I am. I've found a small apartment and settled down. It's not like what I imaged how it is, but at least I have a place to stay for now, so I'm pretty happy about it. Yet I've met some nice people who took good care of me. They've showed me almost everything that I need to know and went out with me to a couple of nice bars twice in a week.  (to be honest, music down here mostly are from the end 90s)

 

I don't have any comments on my new job yet coz I haven't done so much. I wish it would work out fine.  (cross my fingers)

 

BTW, guys. I won't change my cell phone NO. until next month. So call me up if you miss me too

This is for my peoples
Who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby
Your man or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye
No, no, no

Mamas, daddys, sisters, brothers
Friends and cousins
This is for my peoples
Who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky
Cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it
But you kept me in line
I didn't know why
You didn't show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings and I missed you
But I'm glad we talked through

All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show
Because you loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today
Face to face

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by

And it's true that you've
Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say

Bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye

You never got a chance to see
How good I've done
And you never got to
See me back at number one
I wish that you were here
To celebrate together
I wish that we could
Spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to
Tuck me in at night
With the teddy bear you gave me
That I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact
You're gone forever

This well known pop song from Elva says it all. “The most familiar stranger”

 

Apr.2^nd 2008, Lan Kwai Fong Str. Hongkong

 

Sam: Hey, can I ask you a question?

Mona: Sure, go ahead.

Sam: I’m just curious. What would you do if you see him again right at this moment?

Mona: You meant right here, right now?

Sam: Yeah.

Mona: Hmm…Nothing. I’d walk away and say nothing.

Sam: Really? Okay, what if he stops you and talks to you.

Mona: Then I’d act like that I’ve no idea who he is.

Sam: Why?

Mona: Because there’s nothing left to say.

Sam: Ohh…

Mona: ……Let’s go home

Sam: Hmm.

Mona: One more thing. Don’t forget to say goodbye to Hongkong!! Hehe…

Sam: Hehe…